Happy new month my love!!!!!! ❤
Yaaay. It is the second to the last month of the year 2019! Hasn’t God been so so good? 😩❤. If I was asked to summarize my 2019 in one word, I’d say BEAUTIFUL! 😍 and that’s not even because it was ALL beautiful. Lol. Of course I had down times –plenty of them, matter of fact– but the end result of every single thing I went through in the last 11 months is the Beauty God made out of it! Halleluya!
How about you? How would you describe the last 11 months? Remember that every single thing –Good AND Bad– works together for YOUR GOOD. Just stay aligned in His purpose and allow Him teach you to love Him. Your best is yet to come! God is going to do incredible things in the remaining days of the year! Did you see the rainbow on the first day of the month? That’s a sign. That’s a promise. That’s a reassurance. God’s got you. He’s got this.
First things first 😊
I am sorry😭😭😭. Yes. I am. I said that I was going to write a phase 2 of the last blog post (if you haven’t read the last post, please do so. Thank you❤) but you already know me by now🙈. I don’t write except I am permitted by the Holy Spirit to. I had started to write the second phase of the Mind Series and I felt this massive uneasiness in my spirit, I tried to ignore it and kept writing but the feeling wouldn’t just go. I knew immediately that the Holy Spirit did not want me to write. Honestly, I could blog every single day😁. There is always something to talk/write about, lol. But I am under the leadership of a Being. I am a Son and I have to be obedient to my Father, the Most High🤗.
For about 2 weeks, I caught the signal in my spirit that there was a blog post that the Holy Spirit wanted out but I could not figure out what it was about. I did not know what He wanted me to write about, so I kept praying and attentively listening for His voice in my spirit.
Today–on the day that you’ll be reading this, depending on when you clicked the link to read– I saw a photo of someone on a friend’s status and the caption showed that the person in the photo was a great son of God. The person in the photo is not a known face in the High Places of the Ministry, though known by a few people and myself.. Immediately, what came to my mind was “There are still 7000 who have not bowed their heads to Baal”.
For quite a long time now, the Holy Spirit has been dealing with me and I noticed that, it is the same for a number of people. A friend once told me “Whenever I am going through a process and I see other sons of God going through the same or almost the same, I know that I am in good company. God takes His sons through the same thing, because He is not sending us individually. He is raising an army and sending us out as an army”. I realised that, what I was going through–and still going through by the way– was/is the same for a few people that I know.
About 4 months ago. I was conversing with the Holy Spirit on my way to church and I said to Him “Holy Spirit, I am a changed person o. The characters I usually had a struggle with are now like they never existed. You have truly worked on me and I am grateful. So I can be like this?! Patient? High self esteem?”. I was truly happy with my growth. Almost immediately, In a bid to be better and grow I prayed “Dear God, I want you to amplify the voice of my innermost thoughts. Put a microphone to my mind, so that I can hear what I am truly thinking”.
God answered o. The answer shook me to my bones. No sooner did I start hearing myself loud and clear. For example, a lady with a bow leg would walk by and I’ll hear myself say “Na wa o. Which kind leg be this one sef (What kind of legs are these)? . With all the packaging”! Anytime, demeaning thoughts like that, ring loud in my ears, I always say to God “Eyy. God!! No, that was not me. I swear, I did not think that, you taught me better than that” and honestly, I did not think it😂 or at least mean to.
Unknowingly to me, there were pieces of weaknesses that God saw deep down that I had no idea I was capable of having. A better example is going for a program and I hear someone sing with either a bad voice or without the Spirit of God evident in the room. I’ll just hear myself say “What’s all this! Can (s)he get off the stage already? No voice. No fire. Who do they think they are to waste people’s time. I cannot even feel the Holy Ghost”! Ahhhhhhh! If you are in this shoe. Please step out of it! That is a sign of pride budding inside of you!
I ran back to God, asking plenty of “how did I get here” questions. I started to cry and ask God to help take them away. And, He has been doing just that. I would not say that it is all gone completely because I am still going through the process.
If you’d be honest with yourself, you know that you have a weakness, if not more than one. Unlike me, you are probably aware of yours already. It is glaring, not only in your eyes but those that surround you as well. Pride, Anger, Hatred for Correction, Unbirdled tongue . How about the addictions? You speak in tongues, yet you masturbate (The Lord delivered me from this and I am grateful) yet you watch porn, you keep that ungodly relationship in the name of “Love“, right before you step on the altar, you had sex. You prefer to listen to secular music because in your opinion, they have more chord progression and melody in their music than gospel and you call yourself a gospel musician yet dropping junks into your soul.
Enough of hiding under the anointing. Using your gifts to wear a mask and paint holiness that isn’t. That backbiting, that self righteous talk of “She can tell lies So well! I thank God I am not like that” is a weakness! In your heart of hearts, you know that you are only massaging your ego. Hmmmn!
The process. The drilling. The purging that I have been going through in the last 4 months has not been easy. Most of the time, I cry so hard at my wretchedness. Sometimes, it seems like my victory is near and then again, just one little circumstance would show me that I am far from it.
Naturally, I like to rush my process. Naturally, I feel that 4 months is enough to be over this infirmity but God has been teaching me to be patient with Him. I have resolved to stick to this purging for as long as it takes, I deeply want to be purged of these weaknesses. Many times, we like to just stay in the process and countdown to the day it ends, but, God has been teaching me to enjoy the process. That’s when we make the most of it.
I am learning every day to enjoy this Process and hold on to God for as long as it costs me to, for my total and absolute cleansing from my insides. Jesus said in John 15:2
“He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit, He PURGES so that it will even be more fruitful”
I am going through mine. If you are going through the same. It shows that you are aligned. You are not alone. There are others, going through the same
These are the 7000 who have not bowed to Baal. The Baal of Addictions. The Baal of Anger. The Baal of self righteousness and Glorification. The Baal of Greed. E. T. C
Ask yourself, are you one of the 7000? Honestly?
If you are not one of the 7000, I implore you to take the hands of Jesus right now. It is stretched right in front of you. Take His hands and allow Him purge you. It’s gonna be hurtful. But, you need it. The end is gain!
If you are amongst the 7000 who are in the purging and drilling process. Be encouraged. You are not alone in this. You are not a sinner. You are not messed up or good for nothing. Your calling is intact. Your future is still great. Your ministry is not amounted to nothing because of these weaknesses. What’s most important is that, you have surrendered yourself to our Lord Jesus Christ for deep purging. I pray that the Lord opens your eyes to see Him, right in the middle of these Workings in your soul. Remember, even Gold has to pass through fire. Guess what? He is right there with you in the fire. You can and will not be Burned! –Only Scarred by a few burns–What a joy I feel right now!!! 😂😂
Extra News? This purging is not going to end, until we see Him face to face. Don’t rush the process. The only way to bear fruits and truly be like Christ is by purging and the key is Cleanse/Purge as you Go! Don’t ever stop. Brace yourself for more. At the end, we will See Jesus. Only the Pure in Heart, will see Jesus. Remember that!
If you need any encouragement, please send a message to firstname.lastname@example.org or leave a comment below. The Holy Spirit will encourage us both!
I love you!
The King’s Daughter❤